鬼百合
Let It Burn!
Since Donald Trump won the election on November 5, Aeryn has been quietly stockpiling hormone replacement therapy and ammunition, things she sees as essential for living as a transgender woman under the current administration.
She has filled her garage with “20 to 30,000 rounds of ammunition” and up to a year’s worth of estrogen—reaching the outer boundary of the drug’s one- to two-year shelf life.
“Starting with the election, I became very concerned,” she told Uncloseted Media.
Animosity toward trans people in the U.S. is at an all-time high. President Trump has signed a laundry list of executive orders rolling back transgender rights, including one that says—in the eyes of the federal government—trans people don’t exist. Trump has vilified trans people with rhetoric that casts them as a threat to women and children, and during the campaign he made it a promise to get rid of so-called “transgender insanity.”
Anti-trans sentiment has seeped into left-wing circles, too. Some Democrats blamed Kamala Harris’ loss on the party’s stance on trans rights.
All of this has created a perfect storm where nearly three-quarters of trans people in the U.S. now fear physical violence. That’s why many trans people are taking measures to defend themselves by enrolling in training programs, buying guns and learning self-defense.
Fears of violence against queer people are warranted. In 2023, LGBTQ people were five times more likely than non-LGBTQ people to be victims of violent crimes, according to a new study from the Williams Institute. And an FBI report found that there were 547 recorded incidents targeting a victim’s gender identity in 2023, up from 469 the year prior.
Trans women are in an especially dangerous position today, facing the bulk of anti-trans rhetoric and legislation. From bathroom bans to restrictions from sports participation, much of the right-wing focus on trans issues is aimed at trans women. The disproportionate attention on the demographic not only fuels hostility but encourages violence. According to Heidi Beirich, the co-founder of the Global Project Against Hate and Extremism, sustained bigotry can translate to violence.
“There is a link between online hate and real-world violence in terms of hate crimes,” Beirich told Uncloseted Media. “When you demonize communities, it does link to violence.”
For Aeryn, the escalation of anti-trans rhetoric and Trump’s actions have motivated her to prepare for violence.
“It leaves our community to fend for itself and at least be prepared for armed aggression,” she says.
Aeryn, 52, who didn’t feel safe revealing her last name or location, feels lucky to have never experienced any violence personally. But she worries it’s only a matter of time until something happens.
“I think it’s quite likely the administration will at least try to say being transgender is a mental health condition,” she says. Her biggest fear is that the Trump administration will place transgender people under government-sanctioned control, something akin to WWII-era internment camps.
As a safety precaution, she is moving from a red to a blue state—an action nearly half of transgender Americans have considered, according to a 2022 study.
Aeryn, a lifelong gun owner, entered the Marine Corps at 19 and learned to shoot long before she transitioned. There have been other instances where she has stockpiled ammunition, like during the pandemic, but she’s never feared for her safety as a trans woman more than right now.
“I’m worried not in societal breakdown … but a targeted, direct attack on the LGBTQ community and trans people specifically.”
Aeryn is just one of many trans Americans who feel the need to protect themselves under Trump 2.0. Pink Pistols—an international LGBTQ gun rights organization—says that over 20 local chapters have been created or reactivated since the November election.