I thought so, believe it or not it shows. That's why I asked.
You can think what you want of me, but let me tell you an observation that has remained constant for me. When I was a teen, I was far left, like what you used to be before being a Libertarian.
But when I went to work at McDonalds, I started to change slowly, I don't even think I realized it then and not from reading anything, but just from a slow rise with better things happening with more hours or learning new skills. Work felt good and more importantly I didn't feel like I was one of those smart elitists who knew better than all in how to rule the lowly working classes, because I was in that working class now.
But at the same time, those who were left-wing around me (and you can catch that on this site if you watch closely) had a disdain for working blue-collar people, even though they were more fervent about trying to help them with government comforts. They would make snide comments about that kind of job, most of them more well-off with little need to work.
But they lacked any understanding of what that life was, they presumed how it was based on how I used to presume how it was, with them being small people desperately in need of help.
Hard work can do wonders for you, learning skills can do wonders for you, confidence from that ends up in yourself and it inspires you to have a good and free feeling in life where you not only feel confident in granting others their freedom, but in knowing that it is possible for them to make it based on your own experience. That carries with you in life as a shield from the almost instinctive guilt that you get from others problems where you seek altruistic means of escape.
I would urge to get another job, at some point and not right away, I'd also urge you to force yourself to read some pillar of freedom thought like Mises or Hayek and you will be able to understand it better as theory that will relate to experience and not just to your personal feelings.