Sorry, Humel, you're clearly the one who's lost. Many others and I aren't. It's like learning your way home: once you know it, you can't unlearn it, and you'll never get lost again unless you stray so far off the path that nothing looks familiar, but that's quite rare.
Then there are losers like Humel, sidetracked by a very cunning scam artist who convinced him to head downstairs where the party's at, where everyone's having a blast, and you don't need to own your failures or ignorance. Just chant the mantra and take another hit of libtard dope.
Humel's a hardcore addict now. He's moved on to dragging more morons like himself away from finding their way home to join the party downstairs. Misery loves company, right? No worries, he'll figure it out one way or another.
My apologies to anyone genuinely wrestling with this question, unlike Humel here. Keep searching, but you won't find answers from any libtard. They're doing their best to keep you ignorant and bitter like them. Ask the only one you'll believe, and he'll find a way to answer any sincere questions.