I have no doubt that is exactly the excuse you give yourself, but let's look at this for a minute. They're cowards because they won't talk to you but, according to you, I'm a coward for talking to you. Doesn't that strike you as slightly irrational, son?
You are free to ignore your own posts as evidence. Others do not, that's why they ignore you as a lost cause. I do not believe you are a lost cause. You are rational and old enough to know better. What you do is entirely up to you. As Pastor Charles Swindoll once said "
Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% how you react to it."
https://www.insight.org/about/chuck-swindoll
"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes."