People with your kinds of personality disorders just do not understand, Jake
Despite the fact that I abhor the kind of "leader" Trump is...and regret the kinds of insecurities he brings to American governance...and the pity I have for people naïve, stupid or evil enough to support him...I do not hate him or his supporting morons. I feel almost as sorry for him as I do for his supporters.
And I am content in my life. I have enjoyed this trip...which, at 84, is much closer to being over than to having started. I am a very, very lucky guy.
I am assuming your "Then you must be devoid of all awareness" was a throw-away line, offered because you obviously have nothing worthwhile to say.
As I said...l hope you actually are laughing (you don't sound like it) because I sure as hell am. I'd prefer a win/win situation...but will settle for you being the loser you seem intent on being.