Dude, we are talking about something that 99% survive and that's just with the cases we know of. It ain't the Black Plague, nut up and go live your life.
I don't need it until I test negative for antibodies.
You are getting bad information. People who get the first shot, have antibodies, but still need the second shot. Having some antibodies is not enough to defend you from Covid-19. If you have some antibodies, it is recommended you get one shot, rather than two.