grind...in all honesty, just say you don't want to go...
granted it took me longer than your years to do so, but once i did, it felt great....if you hate it that bad, you need to do what is right for you. you don't need lies or excuses, its your life and you're only making it worse for others by not living it honestly. if your being there is so painful, it likely comes across to others and you do no one any favors by your presence. and in all likelihood, they would feel bad if they knew you how you felt and feel guilty for making yoiu think yoiu had to show up...
be true to yourself and most everything falls into place, it was a hard lesson for me to learn, but once i learned it, life has been so much better....the old adage and song is true....you can't please everyone....
are we talking about something else or do you have the same thoughts on thanksgiving as me? :eek3: