Seriously, man. Take stock of your life, and evaluate if it's even worth finishing at this point; you lie about yourself on the internet so you can be taken seriously on anonymous internet message boards.
Fuck man...that's depressing. I'm depressed just thinking about it...I can only imagine the pain you must have that causes you to make up shit about yourself so you don't have to face reality.
Oh look, here's me a few years back moving my luxury spa from my suburban home up to my mountain retreat. I built a crane out of lumber, hoisted the spa, then dismantled the crane and used the lumber to reinforce the deck floor.
Smart smart smart....